The feeling of emptiness.

I've been feeling so empty and lifeless lately because of the choir thing. I keep on wishing that once I wake up I'll be back singing with all my operafest friends.Its like a very odd feeling cause I always look forward to weekends and performances and all of a sudden I have nothing to look forward to. The empty feeling is nothing like anything I experienced before. I miss the stage, the practices, Mrs kam and all her criticises about my odd way of singing etc, my friends in Operafest and more importantly the wonderful feeling of singing as a whole.

Well you might think I'm being a bit sensitive but all I can say is I really really wish this year would past quickly.I just want to go for practice as usual and all. If it was last year I would have complained that practice is very tiring but now I would give anything just to attend practice like I used to. You might just think I'm freaky but this is the real me. Only now that I realised that this place was a place called home. A place I felt safe and comfortable and be myself.

Why is it that people only cherish things when they loose it? Thinking back of all the past performances that I've done I realised that I really could have done better. If i could just turn back time.....

That's all for today now...Hoping that it'll just past quick enough. =( here's a link taht maybe you'd like to check out. http://www.facebook.com/photo.php?v=184598358217079&set=t.100000257341465&type=3&theater

Starting of my wonderful year....

School started and at first I was scared but after the first day I was ok again. Well prefect duties weren't very enjoyable cause we don't really know what to do and had to stand still for so long.Sad case....we never stand on one spot too long when we had to duty in afternoon session. But despite standing it was still kinda nice.Then there's always the dreaded older students a.k.a seniors. They're like so much taller than me and I really feel small now.
The teachers that teach my class are kinda strict and I'm a little scared when they ask me to answer questions. But luckily my class teacher was very kind enough.
Anyway,school life in morning session is kinda ok now but waking up at 6 is clearly not my thing.I'm still feeling half dead in the morning.I guess I'll have to get used to it. PMR is this year....I'm still not sure what I'm gonna do...Its a big decision. On one hand I'll have a chance to do what I've always wanted to do but on the other hand I'll have to leave all my friends behind.Still thinking about it.=P
That's all for today and I'll be blogging again very soon so stay tuned.

Crazy-ing about Christian Music.

As you see in my title I'm crazy-ing over Christian Music. Hillsong is awesome everyone! Go listen to it! =)

Schools Reopening soon

Yup we're starting school on Wednesday. And worst of all I'll have to wake up so early T_T. Next year is morning session and I'm really hoping that'll all turn out alright. Gosh its so scary and i'm wondering how next year would turn out. On the bright side I have a few friends in my ex class that I've grown pretty attached to from last year. But sadly they're all guys...so? I'm really hoping that all the girls in my new class would be more friendly and not stick to their own clicks.

Anyway...I'm having more pressing matters now that mum won't let me go for choir practice on Saturday and Sunday. I've tried convincing her so many times yet she kept saying no.This year would be a very busy year for the choir and most importantly they're going to New York in July. I mean how many times can you have the honor to sing in New York. For an asian average girl like me its kinda like a once in a life time opportunity.Why do I have to be 15 this year????Why????? I really really wan to go...

Choir-ing has been my life my all I look forward to it every single week.Its a habit I've gotten this past year. And I'm missing it more and more badly each day. I miss my friends. I miss Mrs Kam my conductor. And I miss singing with all of them so badly. This is something mum doesn't understand. But life has to go on...I'm going to study as hard as I can so I can go back as soon as possible.

Life is not always as I want it so...I'm just gonna live with it and through it. A year is gonna past very quickly. And I'll be back singing very soon indeed. Positive thoughts Junie Chan. =) Anyway, happy new year everyone!!!!!!